A Will To Change (Hope) Page 22

  She skimmed through the pages, stopping at a few entries every now and then to read them over. “I thought that I accidently threw it out in the move. I’m so happy that it was here the whole time, safe and sound.” She pulled it into her chest and hugged it.

  “Gabby, who is the angel that you wrote to?”

  Her smile quickly faded. She took a deep breath and looked away. “It’s…it’s just…nobody.” I could tell it was a sensitive subject for her so I didn’t press the issue.

  “Thank you so much for everything today, Gabby. You made it a lot easier.”

  “I told you before that you don’t have to thank me. That’s what friends are -.”

  I put my finger over her lip to stop her from talking. “Gabby, last night -.” I took a deep breath and swallowed hard. “Last night when I told you that I loved you, I meant that I’m in love with you.” She looked up at me with surprise. I pushed her hair from her face and stared into her eyes. “I love you so much, Gabby. For the first time in my life, I’m in love. I’m not going to lie to you. I’m scared shitless that I’m gonna mess this up, but I’ll never know if I don’t try.”

  She rubbed her thumb along my jawline. “I have all the faith in the world in you, Will McAdams,” she whispered, grabbing the back of my neck and pulling me into a deep kiss.

  She finally pulled way and stood up in front of me, lifting her dress over her head. I put my hands on her waist and stared up at her standing there in just her bra and underwear. My body was aching for her as she removed my tie and unbuttoned my shirt. I helped her out with the last of my buttons, taking it off and throwing it on the floor. Her warm, soft hands slid down my bare chest as I moved my hands to her ass and moved her closer to me. My tongue glided up her stomach and she threw her head back, running her hands through my hair. I stood up and kissed her once again before picking her up and carrying her into my bedroom. I placed her on my bed and sat down next to her. She giggled as I struggled to unhook her bra. She finally reached behind her back and undid it herself. I pushed her down on the bed and couldn’t get my mouth on her tits fast enough. She moaned as I teased her nipples with my tongue and then my lips, making sure that I gave both equal attention. I ran my fingers along the waistband of her pink lacy underwear. God, she was more perfect than I even imagined. My hands slowly made their way to the spot that I had longed to touch, longed to taste and, most of all, longed to be inside of.

  She let out a loud cry of pleasure as my fingers began to tease her. She was so wet when I stuck my fingers inside of her that I thought I was going to come right then and there. I slid my fingers in and out of her while she moaned and called my name. I pulled her underwear down and glided my tongue all the way down her stomach until my mouth reached that sweet, delicious spot on her body. I couldn’t get enough of her as she whimpered, crying out for more. I wanted to be inside of her so bad, but she tasted so good. I started off slow, gradually building the intensity. She grabbed onto the sheets and raised her hips, screaming out my name as I tasted her sweet release. Her entire body was quivering.

  “Please Will, please. I want you inside of me,” she pleaded. I looked at her and smiled before reaching in my nightstand drawer for a condom.

  She grabbed my arm and shook her head. “I’m on the pill. I want to be different, Will. I want to be special. I want to know what it feels like to have you completely.”

  “Gabby girl, you are already so special to me.”

  “Then let me be extra special,” she said, pulling me into her and kissing me hard before unbuttoning my pants and giving them an extra hard tug, eagerly removing them and my boxers. She trailed her hand down to my dick, sending my body into overdrive as she gently stroked me up and down. I hovered over her, looking down at her beautiful pleading eyes. I was so hard for her and I wanted her more than I ever wanted anything in my life.

  I placed my hands under her ass and she tilted her hips up, welcoming me to enter. I looked into her eyes as I slowly eased myself inside of her. I had to catch my breath. She was so wet, so warm, so tight. “Oh fuck, Gabby. You feel so fuckin’ good.” She tilted her head back and swallowed hard, granting me easy access to her neck as I moved in and out of her. She ran her hands up and down my back while I tried my best to distract myself from coming. I wanted to make this last forever, but she felt so damn good that it was very difficult.

  I slowly rolled over onto my back, pulling her on top of me and placing my hands on her hips, watching her as she closed her eyes while her body moved up and down on me. I sat up and she wrapped her legs tightly around my waist. Her hair was blanketed around my face as I buried my face in her tits and we moved together in perfect unison. She kissed my neck and grazed my earlobe with her teeth. I knew that there was nothing that could distract me any longer and I knew she was almost there, too. I quickly moved myself in and out of her and pressed my forehead against hers. “I want you to look at me, Gabby. I want to see what you look like just before you lose it. I want to know that I’m the only one that will ever get to see that look on your face again.”

  She grabbed my neck and kissed me hard as we continued to move. She moved her forehead back to mine, fixating her eyes on mine. Her bottom lip began to quiver and she threw her head back, letting out a loud cry of pleasure. My sweet little Gabby girl looked absolutely beautiful as her body melted completely around me. “I love you, Will,” she whispered before gently biting my bottom lip.

  Just when I thought my dick couldn’t get any harder, it did right before I totally and completely lost it inside of her. I pulled her close and moved in out of her until I was completely done. She hugged me tightly as I tried to catch my breath. I kissed her on the shoulder, still trying to figure out what had just happened. I never actually felt connected with someone after sex, but I did with her. I didn’t want to let her go. I wanted to hold her in my arms forever.

  I was still inside of her as I ran my hands through her hair. “You are so fuckin’ beautiful, you know that?” I hugged her as tightly as her petite little body would allow, feeling myself trembling as she rested her head on my shoulder and I played with her hair.

  “Will, you’re trembling.”

  “That was just -.” I swallowed hard, trying to snap out of it. “That was just really good.” My heart was racing.

  She traced her fingers along my jawline. “What we have together, no one can ever take away.”

  I pushed her hair from her face, wiping away the lone tear that was streaming down her face. “What we have is forever, Gabby. You are mine and I am yours…forever.” She kissed her fingertip and then placed it on my lips. “Thank you for always being my Gabby girl.”

  She looked up at me with those beautiful eyes. “Always and forever.” She smiled.

  The rain was falling outside of Will's bedroom window, but neither of us seemed to care. It was after ten in the morning and we were still in each other's arms. I kissed him on the cheek and went to get up before he pulled me back down. “Hey, where are you going?” he asked.

  “Umm…I was gonna get up?”

  “For what? It's nasty out and you have no place to be except for right here.”

  I didn’t put up a fight. I rather liked that plan. Nuzzling closer into his chest, I closed my eyes, listening to the rain hitting the window and watching Will’s chest rise and fall with each breath that he took. It wasn’t too long before I found myself drifting back to sleep, never feeling as content in my entire life as I was at that moment.

  We finally forced ourselves out of bed late in the afternoon. After we took a quick shower together, I dressed in a pair of Will's sweats and sweatshirt. I was so happy to find my old toothbrush still in the medicine cabinet.

  “Thank you for keeping my toothbrush. Now I can kiss you with fresh, minty breath,” I giggled, planting a soft kiss on his lips as I whisked past him into the kitchen. I looked in the refrigerator, trying to find something to make us to eat, but since Will hadn't been keeping up on shopping since I had le
ft, there wasn't much to choose from.

  “I see you are back on your Ramen Noodle diet since I left,” I teased.

  He smiled and moved closer to me, backing me up into the counter. “Yeah, well, that's gonna change,” he said, wrapping his arms around my waist.

  “Oh? How so?”

  “Because you're moving back in here.”

  “Will, I still have two months -.”

  He placed his lips on mine to stop me from talking. “So, just pay that chick what you owe her for the two months. As long as she's gettin' her money, she's not gonna care.”

  I looked up at him and caressed his cheek. “Well, does this mean that I'm officially your girlfriend?”

  He smiled that panty-dropping smile that made my knees weak, and gripped my waist tighter. “Oh, baby, you are so much more that it scares me.”

  “Will’s got a girlfriend! Will’s got a girlfriend!” I teasingly sang.

  “Yup, I do, and she’s hot as hell.” His lips were on mine in a matter of seconds as he ran his hands up and down my body. “I want to finish where we left off that night,” he said, lifting me up onto the counter.

  “On one condition.” I smiled, pressing my forehead against his.

  “What's that?”

  “I want you to fuck me.”

  He shook his head and smirked, letting out a deep breath. “Well, if you insist. I guess a guy's gotta do what a guy’s gotta do.”

  “That's right. Now get to it,” I giggled.

  His lips skimmed my neck and he whispered in my ear, “I hope you’re ready for this because once I start, there’s no turning back.”

  “Oh, I am so ready,” I whispered back. He jerked my body into his and kissed me as if his life depended on it. He lifted my shirt over my head and smiled upon seeing that I didn’t have my bra on. “I’m not wearing underwear, either,” I giggled.

  His tongue skimmed my breast before taking my nipple into his mouth. He pulled me down from the counter and quickly removed my pants, looking me over as I stood there completely naked. He circled around me and stood behind me, pulling me into him. “What do you want, Gabby?” he whispered as he lifted up my hair and kissed me on the back of my neck. His voice was so low and sexy, making my need for him even greater. I could feel his erection pressing against my back and my insides were throbbing in pain with want for him.

  “I want you to fuck me, Will.” He reached around to the front of me while gently biting my neck, his hands trailing down my body. I let out a gentle moan when he began to move his fingers in and out of me.

  “Does that feel good?” he asked, grazing his teeth over my earlobe.

  “Yes,” I whispered. I threw my head back on his chest and closed my eyes, feeling my insides becoming wetter with each glide of his fingers. “Will?”

  “Yeah?”

  “I really need you to fuck me now.”

  He turned me around so I was facing him. I unbuttoned his jeans and he quickly pulled them down, along with his boxers. I looked up at him and smiled. “But first, allow me to do something for you.”

  My lips met his chest, trailing their way down his stomach and then his thighs. He leaned against the wall as I bent down on my knees, paying particular attention to that part of his body that I needed so much. I teased him with my mouth, feeling him getting harder with each stroke of my tongue. He ran his hands through my hair while I glided my lips over his erection, “Oh, my god, Gabby,” he whispered.

  I gently stroked him with my hand, while taking him deeper into my mouth. I could feel him getting harder and myself getting more turned on. “Gabby, I’m gonna -.”

  He quickly pulled me up, wrapping my leg around him and lifting me up on the counter once again. He finally put me out of my misery. I felt the fullness of him while he relentlessly slammed into me over and over again, grabbing my hair and forcing me to look at him. I had never been so turned on in my life. What we shared last night was beautiful, but this…this was exciting. I liked knowing that I could experience both mild and wild with him and, at the same time, let him know that I wasn’t some fragile little girl that he always had to be gentle with. His breathing grew heavier and his erection grew harder inside of me. “I love it when you fuck me like this, Will,” I whispered. I wrapped my legs tighter around his waist and leaned back into the counter, taking him deeper.

  “Oh fuck, Gabby. You feel so fuckin’ good.”

  I could feel the momentum building, the look in his eyes, the feel of him moving in and out of me, and I was gone. I pulled him close and dug my fingers into his back at the same time that I felt the warmth of him inside of me. “Oh, my god, Will!” I screamed, never experiencing anything like that before in my life.

  He had sweat pouring off him and was trying to catch his breath. “Why the fuck did I wait so long to do that?”

  I wrapped my arms around his neck and smiled. “Hey, don’t ask me. I was the one practically begging for it, remember? But you were so worth the wait.”

  I slid off the counter and grabbed the clothes on the floor. “Let’s get your stuff and come back home.” I looked up at him and smiled. Home. It was a word that had always seemed so foreign to me, but suddenly I was feeling like I was speaking the language fluently.

  Gabby rested her head on my chest. She had officially moved back in two months ago, and I loved being able to wake up together…when our work schedules would allow it. I couldn’t believe how content I finally was. I was so scared of letting her in that way. But, the truth was, I had never been happier. I felt like the other half of me was finally pieced together. Even though we both knew that what we had was forever, I wanted to seal the deal. Since I was clueless where to start, I called Hope. We spent three long hours at the jewelers before I finally decided on the perfect ring. Tonight was the night that I was planning on giving it to her. I had decided that I would take her out to dinner and ask her sometime after that.

  She lifted her head and looked at me. “So, what did you feel like doing today?” she whispered.

  “Hmm…we can stay in bed all day.”

  “That sounds like a good idea, but it’s an absolutely beautiful day. We have to do something.”

  I kissed her on the top of her head. “Well, actually, it’s my friend Danny’s birthday. I visit him every year. You want to come with me?”

  “Sure! Did I ever meet him?”

  “No,” I replied, feeling that familiar knot in my stomach whenever I would think of Danny, even after all these years.

  She kissed me on the cheek before getting up. “Well, I’ve got get up and take a shower and get this day started.”

  “Take one with you?” I grinned.

  “Sounds like a plan.” She smiled back.

  I was waiting around for Gabby to finish up so we could leave when I decided to take the ring out of my dresser drawer to look at it again. “Ready?” she asked as she quietly walked into the room, catching me totally off guard. I fumbled around to close the lid and quickly shoved it in my pocket.

  “Yup,” I said, trying not to look too suspicious, wishing she would leave the room so I could shove it back in my drawer. But, instead, she stood there waiting for me, forcing me to keep it in my pocket.

  “So where are we going?” she asked.

  “Just over the bridge,” I said as we walked out the door.

  Gabby talked the entire ride and before I knew it, we were entering the Financial District. After driving around for what seemed like an eternity, I finally found a parking spot. Gabby squeezed my hand tight and was quiet during the entire walk. This area of the city brought back so many painful memories of that horrible day, and I always found that I tried to avoid it as best as I could. Gabby stopped in front of Saint Paul’s Chapel and smiled before I took her hand once again and lead her across the street to the World Trade Center Memorial. I took a deep breath as I stood in front of the entrance, but Gabby stopped dead in her tracks.

  “What’s the matter?”

  “I just t
hought you said we were going to visit -.”

  “Just come with me.” I took her hand and led her along. We got our tickets and went through security, taking the short walk to the memorial. I stopped at the South Pool and pointed to Danny’s name on the monument. “Gabby, meet Danny. Danny, meet Gabby.”

  She looked up at me and her eyes filled with tears. She took my hand and walked a few steps, as she ran her fingers over the name Antonio Spencer. “Will, meet my dad. Daddy, meet Will.”

  “Your dad?” I asked. She nodded. “I thought you said your dad had a heart attack.”

  She nodded and looked away. “That’s what I tell everyone because I pray to God that he died before the tower collapsed. Crazy, right?” Her tear-filled eyes finally met mine.

  “No, it’s not.”

  She looked off into the distance. “The nightmares, you know…the one I had that night and you had asked me about? They are of that day.”

  I creased my forehead. “Were you here on September eleventh?”

  She took a deep breath and nodded. “And I wouldn’t be alive, either, if it weren’t for him.”

  I looked at her in confusion. “Who? Your dad?”

  She shook her head and looked down at the waterfall, tears streaming down her face. “No. My angel. My dad was supposed to be at a meeting on the other side of town that day, but stupid me left my homework at this office the night before so we had to go and get it. We were trying to make our way out and he was -.” She choked back a sob. “He was having a hard time breathing. This fireman came out of nowhere and helped me get out just before the building collapsed. That’s who my angel is that I write to in my journal. He left me just as quickly as he came.”

  My eyes widened and I was instantly brought back to that day and that girl, the one who saved my life as I saved hers. The painful look in her eyes once I had finally gotten her completely out of harm's way and left her with a police officer still haunted me all these years later.